I know I am new to this website and pray nothing I say is out of line. I hope you all enjoy this blog and feel free to contact me with any question/comments! -Josh
So here's the deal, I did a whole new Vlog on spanking your children. I stayed up late to make sure the blog got posted and for some reason the blog won't post. Now as I am sure you all guessed this is frustrating as it takes a lot of work to create these and for it not to post is just frustrating.
That being said I realize that there must be a reason why it won't post. As I sat here getting mad at my computer and started yelling (anger issues I know are a sin) I was thinking about my faith. I know I run this website and have published a book, but my faith is something I struggle with from time to time.
I never struggle with who God is, or what was done for me on the cross. What I struggle with is that feeling God isn't listening to anything I pray about. I have prayed for so long for God to move in my life. I have wanted to realize all my dreams. I want to see myself up on stages speaking, sitting down with couples about to get married discussing what marriage is, I want to see souls coming to know Jesus, I want to have a descent truck and live in my own house. I want my kids to be able to go to the best schools, I want to be able to pay all my bills without being broke. I want to be able to not have to worry about money, health, or problems within my own family.
As I look at this list I constantly think this isn't too much to ask for. I mean I am praying to the same God that created everything we know. Jesus came to this world died on the cross that we may live forever. What I am asking is child's play for this God. He rescued his people from Egypt, He parted the sea, He was with David when he killed Goliath. He is the same God that gave Abraham children at 100 years old. He turned water to wine, gave the blind sight, conquered the grave, why then is He not compelled to do what I ask?
In Matthew 21:22 Jesus tells us if we ask we will receive. Why then have I not received? I believe this is a question that turns a lot of people away. Jesus tells us if we ask we will get, yet I.....whatever your story had you ask for, you didn't receive the way you thought you would have. This question is hard to say the least.
There are two parts to this question that need to be addressed. The first is God is God. He owes us nothing. He doesn't owe any of us an explanation to why he does or doesn't do things. He alone is God and deserves our love and worship due to that fact alone. If our faith is based upon what we get out of the deal, then we have lost sight of the fact that God is the God of most high. He is completely sovereign, He did not need us to create the universe and He will be here after we are gone. He was here before, is here now, and will be here after.
The second part goes along with time. God is past, present and future. He alone knows what tomorrow holds. He knows the desires of our hearts and knows why we pray for what we do. He knows the selfish reasons why we want to be rich, powerful, or famous. He knows what we would do with all the things He wants to give us. He also knows when the time is right to unleash all the power of heaven to His children. He may be molding you into a vessel to use whatever blessing He has decided to give you.
He may be working out all the kinks. As for me I know that if I had not walked through what I have in life, I wouldn't have the heart to help as I do now. If I would have never been on the bottom, I would never have known what it felt like. I would never have had the compassion to reach out and aid people in all their struggles. If I would have gotten everything I prayed for, I wouldn't even know who God was. I would be the most self-absorbed person on this planet. God knew that. He knew what I would need to be equipped with to do His work. I have had a calling on my life since I could remember, but I did not have the tools to accomplish what His calling was.
God has used my past ( as bad as it was) to be able to have a voice to help others. In Romans 8:28 the Bible tells us ALL things work for good for those who love Him and are called for His purposes. Not some things, not just those people who are sparkling clean, but ALL things. How come then I haven't been given the chance to....whatever it is you are waiting for? Where is your faith? Just because God didn't work the way you thought He should have does that mean He isn't working? Do you know the people that are being moved around right now? Did you know that the company you are about to go work for just got a new boss? This boss is a strong believer and is going to make sure his employees don't work on Sunday. This guy is going to make sure you have every opportunity to move up, make more money, and be able to give to missions at church. We can't see what is going on and our faith is starting to be challenged.
What is this faith thing anyway? Faith is the tool we use to connect with God. Faith is belief in something we can't hear, see, touch, smell, or taste. Faith is what saved you. Your faith through God's grace is what wrote your name in the book of life. God operates in faith. He uses our struggles and trials to expand our faith. When you walk through the fire, you may not know it at the time, but God is why you didn't get burned. It may have hurt and felt like it would never end, but fire refines the gold!
When your faith is tested, it gets stronger. When you know that no matter what you walk through God will always be there, you know there is nothing impossible for the creator of the universe. God may not do anything the way we want Him to, but He will do everything perfectly. He knows what is best. He knows when the time is right, and He knows what our heart feels. The bottom line is, it is normal to struggle, but faith in God is the tool you use to climb through the struggle. When God is for us, what can be against us? (Romans 8:31)
Brother or sister I know sometimes it gets to be more than you think you can bear. I am sure while Jesus was taking a beating for OUR sin He had similar thoughts. Just know that God is still God and deserves our worship for that fact alone. He has not forgot you and never will. Jesus was thinking about you while He was dying, for us to live. He didn't forget you then and knows you now. Hang on stay in the fight and allow God's glory to shine through!!! The best word of encouragement I can give you is found in Psalm 46:10 and it sums everything that I have just written;
“Be still, and know that I am God.
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth!”