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My name is Cassandra and I am a upcoming writer of children's book and novels. My passion is for the Biblical story series that I created. I have a 1min video that you can take a look and your feedback is valued. Thanks


Angelkiss Listen to silence and hear the whispers deep within. 

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     This is my first attempt to explain some of the reasons I believe how I do. Please bear with me here as I embark on this. It was November of 1987 and in a psych ward for teens at age 11 when I found the local Christian music station (WRTP in Durham NC). There my love affair with CCM was born. Through the years God has spoken to me through this unique genre. 

     I have decided to make this somewhat of a series of short blogs giving insights, opinions, and memories of each of these entries. The first one I have chosen for this premiere of this series is "Seventy Times Seven" from David Meece.

     This song was released on David's 1986 album "Chronology". It is based on the scripture where one of Jesus' disciples asked Him if a person offends them, how many times should they forgive them. Jesus told them not to forgive seven times, but seventy times seven. In Hebrew numerology, seven is a very important number. It symbolizes perfection and completion. 

    This next part is my opinion and I know there is the possibility of me being wrong and I apologize for that. No offense by any means.

     A brief run down of David's story: his father was a drunk and drug addict. Go to and download his testimony. This song was written before his father died in 1986. Personally I believe God laid this song (along with others) on his heart to prepare him for his father's death and beyond. Eventually David would forgive his father for what happened. Again, visit the website.

    We all have people who we need to forgive for whatever reason. Let me speak on my experience. I was molested and raped as a kid by my stepfather. It wasn't until I was 17 before I spoke out about it. Long story short, he died in 1999. I thought when he died, the pain would go with him, but it didn't. 

     I am still struggling with the idea of the idea of forgiving him. At least I have seriously considered the idea. Let God know that and at least it's a start. I have to hold on to hope and in time, be able to let it go. Saying my stepfather's name aloud is very difficult for me. 

    We can all learn from this song.  If we don't forgive others, God won't forgive us. But we have that choice and He will not make us. Not forgiving becomes like a cancer, eating us alive from within. It will ultimately destroy us. I am slowly learning those lessons.  




     Andi was shocked at how her intuition was dead on about her best friend. "I didn't want to yell you this because of what it could do to our friendship." Crystal assured her. "I promise this secret won't ever leave my lips." Andi placed her hand over her heart and made an oath. "Actually, you and Pastor Rich are the only ones who know." Crystal then changed into her uniform. Andi was impressed.  "Nice. The hooded cloak really pulls it together." 

     It wouldn't be long until Uncle David would be home. He just texted Crystal to let her know he was coming home. The two finished their homework and Andi went home where her mom was waiting. For Crystal, having someone who knows her secret was a relief. It was getting too much for her to keep this to herself. She went up to her room and did some work on a painting before turning in to bed. Sweet dreams would follow that night. Under stress she tended to have nightmares.

      Again the dreams came. The man burned at the stake, those around him gloating. After being reduced to ashes, a woman comes over to collect the remains and finds an object. Something shiny, unscathed by the flames. This time Crystal had a better look. It looked like the necklace her mom wore. She always said this was an heirloom in her family. She slips it into a hidden pocket.

     School was no better the next day. The kids who still wanted nothing to do with her shot glares her way when she passed by, but nothing else. Nothing spectacular like a full on demonic manifestation in English class or anything strange. Just an ordinary day, well almost in her case.



I know I am new to this website and pray nothing I say is out of line.  I hope you all enjoy this blog and feel free to contact me with any question/comments!  -Josh


So here's the deal, I did a whole new Vlog on spanking your children.  I stayed up late to make sure the blog got posted and for some reason the blog won't post.  Now as I am sure you all guessed this is frustrating as it takes a lot of work to create these and for it not to post is just frustrating.

That being said I realize that there must be a reason why it won't post.  As I sat here getting mad at my computer and started yelling (anger issues I know are a sin) I was thinking about my faith.  I know I run this website and have published a book, but my faith is something I struggle with from time to time.

I never struggle with who God is, or what was done for me on the cross.  What I struggle with is that feeling God isn't listening to anything I pray about.  I have prayed for so long for God to move in my life.  I have wanted to realize all my dreams.  I want to see myself up on stages speaking, sitting down with couples about to get married discussing what marriage is, I want to see souls coming to know Jesus, I want to have a descent truck and live in my own house.  I want my kids to be able to go to the best schools, I want to be able to pay all my bills without being broke.  I want to be able to not have to worry about money, health, or problems within  my own family.

As I look at this list I constantly think this isn't too much to ask for.  I mean I am praying to the same God that created everything we know.  Jesus came to this world died on the cross that we may live forever.  What I am asking is child's play for this God.  He rescued his people from Egypt, He parted the sea, He was with David when he killed Goliath.  He is the same God that gave Abraham children at 100 years old.  He turned water to wine, gave the blind sight, conquered the grave, why then is He not compelled to do what I ask?

In Matthew 21:22 Jesus tells us if we ask we will receive.  Why then have I not received?  I believe this is a question that turns a lot of people away.  Jesus tells us if we ask we will get, yet I.....whatever your story had you ask for, you didn't receive the  way you thought you would have.  This question is hard to say the least.

There are two parts to this question that need to be addressed.  The first is God is God.  He owes us nothing.  He doesn't owe any of us an explanation to why he does or doesn't do things.  He alone is God and deserves our love and worship due to that fact alone.  If our faith is based upon what we get out of the deal, then we have lost sight of the fact that God is the God of most high.  He is completely sovereign, He did not need us to create the universe and He will be here after we are gone.  He was here before, is here now, and will be here after. 

The second part goes along with time.  God is past, present and future.  He alone knows what tomorrow holds.  He knows the desires of our hearts and knows why we pray for what we do.  He knows the selfish reasons why we want to be rich, powerful, or famous.  He knows what we would do with all the things He wants to give us.  He also knows when the time is right to unleash all the power of heaven to His children.  He may be molding you into a vessel to use whatever blessing He has decided to give you.

He may be working out all the kinks.  As for me I know that if I had not walked through what I have in life, I wouldn't have the heart to help as I do now.  If I would have never been on the bottom, I would never have known what it felt like.  I would never have had the compassion to reach out and aid people in all their struggles.  If I would have gotten everything I prayed for, I wouldn't even know who God was.  I would be the most self-absorbed person on this planet.  God knew that.  He knew what I would need to be equipped with to do His work.  I have had a calling on my life since I could remember, but I did not have the tools to accomplish what His calling was.

God has used my past ( as bad as it was) to be able to have a voice to help others.  In Romans 8:28 the Bible tells us ALL things work for good for those who love Him and are called for His purposes.  Not some things, not just those people who are sparkling clean, but ALL things.  How come then I haven't been given the chance to....whatever it is you are waiting for?  Where is your faith?  Just because God didn't work the way you thought He should have does that mean He isn't working?  Do you know the people that are being moved around right now?  Did you know that the company you are about to go work for just got a new boss?  This boss is a strong believer and is going to make sure his employees don't work on Sunday.  This guy is going to make sure you have every opportunity to move up, make more money, and be able to give to missions at church.  We can't see what is going on and our faith is starting to be challenged. 

What is this faith thing anyway?  Faith is the tool we use to connect with God.  Faith is belief in something we can't hear, see, touch, smell, or taste.  Faith is what saved you.  Your faith through God's grace is what wrote your name in the book of life.  God operates in faith.  He uses our struggles and trials to expand our faith.  When you walk through the fire, you may not know it at the time, but God is why you didn't get burned.  It may have hurt and felt like it would never end, but fire refines the gold!

When your faith is tested, it gets stronger.  When you know that no matter what you walk through God will always be there, you know there is nothing impossible for the creator of the universe.  God may not do anything the way we want Him to, but He will do everything perfectly.  He knows what is best.  He knows when the time is right, and He knows what our heart feels.  The bottom line is, it is normal to struggle, but faith in God is the tool you use to climb through the struggle.  When God is for us, what can be against us? (Romans 8:31)

Brother or sister I know sometimes it gets to be more than you think you can bear.  I am sure while Jesus was taking a beating for OUR sin He had similar thoughts.  Just know that God is still God and deserves our worship for that fact alone.  He has not forgot you and never will.  Jesus was thinking about you while He was dying, for us to live.  He didn't forget you then and knows you now.  Hang on stay in the fight and allow God's glory to shine through!!!  The best word of encouragement I can give you is found in Psalm 46:10 and it sums everything that I have just written;

“Be still, and know that I am God.
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth!” 




     Dinner was all about Uncle David giving his two cents about the day's news. And when he got to the "vigilante", his hothead temper was boiling. "We have every right to know who this person is!" 

      People were talking and Daniel was worried about his charge getting puffed up with pride. Crystal was drinking it in discreetly and was starting to be get careless in her battles. Possibly it was the fact that only her pastor knew this dual life she was living. Pride goes before a fall. He knew that all too well.

      Crystal was apprehensive by carrying this burden alone she felt. She began to consider revealing this to her closest friend. From the start of all this she wanted to. The hardest part wasn't that, but a matter of trust between them. The answer would come Sunday morning.

      Pastor Rich's sermon was about having a burden and how we were not meant to carry our issues alone. How burdens are meant to be shared with one another. This rang true to Crystal. It made her really think about it.

       Deep down she had to the right thing. Her and Andi were the best of friends and she didn't want that to change. Her worst fear was that their friendship would change for the worse. Or even the enemy would harm those she loved. That's why Crystal kept this side job to herself. "I am reading too many comic books" she rationalized and decided with Daniel's help, to finally reveal this to her best friend. She would do this while the two had a study session the next day.  

      Uncle David was working an extra shift at the shop. Aunt Marty had to take over for a friend who at the last minute, had to take over a Bible study at church. So this was a perfect opportunity to tell her. They had a English assignment to work on and plenty of leftovers for dinner, that would help Crystal break the news.

      After enjoying some of Saturday's Brunswick stew with a salad and raspberry pound cake for dessert, the hardest part came. In between diagramming sentences the topic of the "vigilante" roaming the city came up. "Who do you think he or she is?" Crystal asked Andi. Without a beat she says that it was best friend. 

      Crystal was flabbergasted by the answer. "This is how I know." Andi began to. "I have seen you climb out the window a few times. And I at least want to know what in the world is going on. Is this why you are so elusive?" Andi had a tendency to ramble on.

       She finally shut up and let her best friend speak. Crystal began to tell Andi about the strange events that began the day they encountered Mr. Jackson that August day. About the angel and the first day of school in the cafeteria. When asked about what the demon looked like, Crystal ran up to her room to grab a pencil and notebook. She sketched one from memory as she could do it.

       Daniel then shows himself to the friends. Andi was smitten by how good looking he was. He was allowed to reveal things. Afterwards, Andi was still a little confused. "Wait, there is some kind of international spiritual warfare black ops group here?". After a moment, he tells her, "What a way of putting it. Why yes, that is the closest anyone ever described what the Order does". 


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     The next few days were exciting. The art show at school helped raise a lot of money for the local recreation center. A local business bought one of her works to hang in their lobby. Crystal was even offered a sizable amount to do a mural. But had to turn it down because of her schedule. Still, she got some recognition.

     In the night, she scoped the city from the clock tower and letting the Spirit lead her to where she's needed. There was an older lady that was being accosted by a gang with fakes mixed in (fakes or fakies is the name of demons in the short term physical form), in an alley way on the other side of the city.

      She got there as they cornered the cane wielding lady. Blows landed but did little to slow them. Crystal slips up behind one of the gang. "Hey, pick on someone who can actually fight back!" And with that, the chaos ensues. Daniel helps the lady out of danger's way by slipping her out of sight in the shadow of a doorway. 

      They circled her, hoping for a swift victory. Cursing and spitting with their sinister grins, plus chains and bats as back up, it began.  Just a brief glimpse of the eyes confirmed her instincts: fakies were mixed with this particular gang. Fakies' eyes are a blood red with an impression of looking into an abyss. 

     It took less than five minutes and it was over. A good workout and the real humans who were left standing ran off. Those left were unconscious by her blade which she named Midnight Sun. The fakies were banished to another plane but can come back.

      Soon the newspaper would speak of a "vigilante", or a guardian angel of the city. Turns out the elderly lady was a relative of the mayor. And the gang members' memory was foggy. All they recall was getting whipped by a hooded woman with a sword. The outfit Crystal wore made her look older to throw off anyone seeking the identities of those in the Order.


"Journal Entry for 10/19"

     "Today I hear at school about what happened to the mayor's mother. How a hero came to save her. I am so tempted to revel in the limelight. But then doing that I risk exposing the Order to the world and defeating it's purpose. Maybe just knowing I did something to help another person is reward enough." Crystal puts down the pen and closes her diary as Aunt Marty calls her for dinner. She had a stack of journals in her closet from around 10. Very therapeutic to help sort her feelings after Mom, Dad and Stephen died. 


     The park was full of young kids and parents, so this was going to be difficult to pull off without some attention being drawn. But this ignorant little demon all buffed up with pride began to run his mouth. Through the person it chose to inhabit, the voice that came out didn't quite match the actual person. 

      Crystal swore she saw the smoke coming out and smell brimstone.  Worse than anything she ever smelled.  "How's the celestial gig Daniel?" It asked, seeming to have known Daniel. He stood there with a stone look on his face. "Very well, preparing for our Lord's return. Wish I could ask the same Gadmadrin, but I would not be truthful." His voice was in a flat tone used when he got serious.

       Then things got strange. This demon whipped out a scroll sealed with a strange emblem that screamed bad news. "I was sent to hand this to you. Concerning her." At the last word, it spat in her direction, good thing she jumped back, for when the spit hit the ground, it fizzled like acid. Daniel opened the missive and began to read. 

     Crystal managed to get a glimpse of what was written, but all she saw were strange symbols. Apparently this was some kind of language these beings used. A pentagram was at the top, indicating this was from the Devil's domain. No explanation needed there. 

     Before he could make a move, Daniel and Crystal were surrounded by some of the cronies that had been watching from the shadows. The people who were at the park barely looked up or even reacted. The attack was swift and sudden.

     Crystal was able to switch into battle mode (as she has come to call it when the battles come) and was able to dispatch those demons in a fake human form. In the few weeks she's been training, the enemy has been able to develop a temporary physical form without occupying a vessel. Possession was still the best way to attack, but there was reluctance most of the time. 

     Within less than five minutes, the fakes were all on the ground, turning into a vapor smelling like sulfur. Daniel took care of the spirits in their natural form. The fakes had one common trait: their eyes. They glow red in times of stress. Looking into them was like staring into a abyss.

     From the shadows Crystal watched as people waved the air trying to fan away the smell.  

     She notices Daniel's face and asks about the exchange with that demon. He tells her that a long time ago, they were best of friends. Then Gadmadrin went over to the other side. Crystal could tell it pained him just thinking about it. Losing a friend like that she couldn't even comprehend. 



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