maybe you just need someone to sit down and explain what you have questions about. Unless you'd rather just go on not knowing...I mean if you have questions, zap me a message and I'll see if I can help. I'm sure many Christains would love to clear anything up you dont get. about the books....I LOVE THEM. i've read them for as long as I can remember...I actually just finished the last one...I didnt want it to end. I felt like they were all my best friends, and I couldn't stand it being over. So I read like 2 pages every 2 months! hahaha...I'm crazy I know. shrug!