First off you admins cracked me up...laughter is always a great thing. Better a smartbutt then a dumbbutt ehh. As for your post, I'm right there in the same boat with you. Being a christain and a born again christain the two sins that I have that are REALLY hard for me to give up (I hope this makes you feel better that I'm telling on myself ;) ) is ciggs and weed. I LOVE to smoke both. Its been a thing I pray on pretty much all the time. I think that if you keep praying about it and you keep asking for God's strength that eventually you'll be able to kick the habit whatever it may be. Its not easy at all. I dont think its suppose to be. G'luck hon.