Thank you for talking through this with me. Also thank you for bringing John 1:12 to my attention. I'm sorry for being rude, especially on the first post. I get kind of hostile sometimes and bulldoze everything, everywhere. I'm sorry too for assuming about you and your coworker's relationship and your understanding; you definitely do understand and are more than qualified to opinionate. I really feel like an idiot. Strike 3. To be quite honest, I think my question had more to do with me being afraid of accepting the responsibility and less of the possibility of overcoming. Didn't Paul write something to one of the churches about it being OK to doubt but not to let the doubts determine our faith? Not sure, does anyone know? Well, thank you, once again. God's kind of on line 2 right now and the phone line's cut. Hopefully He sends a carrier pigeon.