I've been wondering... Ever since my Grandpa died, a lot of things have changed. My Grandma is probably going to move into a high rise, we have no more Thanksgivings to look forward to at their house, and no more hard-stomached hugs that he gave. I felt bad because when I heard the news; I didn't cry! But I was shocked-- I didn't believe it! I am still trying to get it in my mind that it was he who died. Even after seeing his body I still can't picture it. My dad is just overwhelmed by this whole entire thing. Another thing is, is that I've wondered if he's waiting for Heaven or if he's already there. I hope he's already there. I hope against my own will that he is. But at the visitation my Grandma said "Well, at-least he won't have another pill shoved down his throat, or another needle stuck up his arm." And after that, she burst into tears. He was in the nursing home-- so that's what she was talking about. I just feel really bad for her because she lost her companion for life. They were married fifty-four years... for thirteen days. Their anniversary was July 1st, 1955; and his death was July 14th, 2009. I feel so bad for her. Please pray fo[/color]r her. Please?