I need to let all this out, so here I go. This trying out for drum major stuff is getting to me. At first, I was all excited, then I came home and my family acts like it's no big deal. Mom and Dad, both musicians, refuse to help me with ANYTHING and just act like it's nothing. I told Dad and all he said was "Oh. Okay. Good." Not another word. Not one. Mom did about the same. I'm working my butt of constantly, not only trying to prepare for finals, but preparing for a piece that I have to conduct ALL on my own in 2 weeks and 3 days. That's all the time I have. That's it. And then tryouts one week after that. No support, nothing. I'm disappointed. Extremely. I came home today, all excited because I got to start the process of editing my score. Mom walked through the door, and I was hyped up about telling her. However, to her, my 7-year-old brother's spelling test that he takes once a week was more important. Woo. He got a 100. Again. "Go show your dad! I'm so happy! You're so smart!" *gag* And on top of that, one of the other candidates is acting like a complete moron and using every opportunity to shoot my hopes down, to the point where I was sitting in the guard room crying the other day. Now I'm at it again. Locked up in my room, bawling my eyes out because of all this; trying to talk myself into quitting, even though I want it so bad, because I don't know if it's worth the pressure anymore. I'm hurt. I really am. And I don't know how much more I can stand.

:hug: Thanks, everyone. I sat around and thought about it last night. I decided to stay in it, and today, I went in with more confidence than ever. I messed up a few times, but I tried my absolute hardest, which is what's important. Thanks for the support, and yes, I believe I'll talk with them.