Hey ladies... ever had one of those moments that you just want to go crawl into a dark hole, curl up there, and let life go on without you? Yeah that's me now. by now, I mean all this month. There are days that I wonder why I'm getting out of bed in the mornings... I mean, it's not like I'm goign to be saving a life, much less changing the world in any way in that one day. I've been scared and paranoid for seemingly no reason (ok, there is a reason, it's due to what happened about a year ago... but i can't change it) Any suggestions? I'll take anything at this point.. how to move on from something that should never have happened, how to be happy, new point of view, reason to believe that God's not just toying with me and/or abandoning me, anything! Perferably one where I dont have to talk to "a trusted adult" about it. aka, no parents, no shrink, no counselor, no pastor, no meds... something real with as little human contact as possible. Please help?

I'm sorry to hear about this, chica. I know how that feels. I don't know how to help. I can only say is you must hunt for G-d and pray for peace.

MABY GOD IS JEST TYING TO PREPAIR YOU FOR WHAT TO COME BUT DO WHAT HE WANTS YOU TO DO:silly:

... And of course a mere 1 hour after I post this, God sends a guy up to the bookstore where I'm working alone tonight to talk to me. One of the "Go-figure" moments in my life. ... i still want my hole to crawl in though..