i cant help but think that there isnt really something out there waiting to take us when we are done here.....i dont want to sound negative or nothing nor against religoin but god hasnt exacly been on my side in life....i mean u kno i've like read the bible and ive heard people preach things to me ive been baptised and ive been saved but i still cant grasp it....but watevs....the reason i believe hes not on my side is because ive not the best life in the book ive been abused emotionally physically and verbally....i hate/hated it....and now my grandmother whom has always been there for me is now on death row and i cant do anything to help her!!!!! gahh!!!! for once he could grant me a lil something!!!!!!!! i mean ya thanks for giving me the courage to pass the 8th grade but i need a bigger miracle!!!!! signed-JeSsIe PoO :(

hun i can honestly say i know how you feel. there is hardly a day that goes by when i dont doubt God and doubt that he loves me but then he proves himself to me, he doesnt have to but he does all the same. you say you read your bible, do you study the words instead of just skimming over them? you have heard people preach, do you soak up what they are saying? i found the best way to understand things is by talking about it with wise christian friends, people who get you n dont care how blunt you can be. God is ALWAYS on your side! I too have been abused, emotionally, physically, verbally and sexually but God has always had his hand of protection over me. he has protected me from being hurt more than i was and i thank God everyday for his loving kindness. as for you grandma, have you ever thought that God may be taking her to a better place? If she is in pain God may be releaving her of it, all the same im sorry to hear that. Jessie have you heard that saying about taking time to slow down and smell the flowers? i think thats what you need to do. go to a quiet place and pour your heart out to God, tell him what you think about all of this cause hey he knows it anyway. look back and think about all the times good things have happened to you, where you thought conencidences have happened, all of those things were God. he will NEVER leave you. i will be praying for you. Kezia

Post edited by: keyseya, at: 2008/05/09 21:33

thanks!!!!!!!

[b]MaLiBuBaby wrote:[/b] [quote]thanks!!!!!!![/quote] your most welcome, i hope i helped. if you want to talk more feel free to PM me :)

totally will :side:

hey its ok i feel like that to and god is there he has a plan 4 ur life and he does wat he does cause its 4 the best it may not seem like it but it is i'll be praying 4 u;)