On many things, here's a few. There are three things in this world that I'm deathly afraid of: Heights, spiders, and dark parkinglots. I'm terrified of dark parking lots. I literally speed-walk or run through them to get to my car or elsewhere. Even if it's slightly lit, I cant handle it. I don't think anyone's catching onto it, since Ryan was droping me off at my car the other night after we had been running around places with his car for a while. My car was in the church parking lot, and b the time we got to it, it was about 9 pm. Dark. No one else was in the parking lot, so he walked me the whole 3 feet to my car lol... but he stopped me to give me a hug. long hug. too long for a dark parking lot. I kept giving off the "lemme get to me car" hints, and I don't think he understood. Doubt that he will, even if he does, he'll ask why, and I don't want to give that answer. So what do I do about that issue of mine? :S So I'm trying to protect my bf from anything along the lines of us developing any form of impure relationship. My issue here is that i went way too far last time, and it destroyed me. I know this guy is innocent, and I dont want him to be destroyed the same way, but I seem to have lost that ever-so-fuzzy line of "too far".I forget what is and is not appropriate, so I leave it at a hug or holding hands. It's been a month of this, and people keep looking at me like there's something wrong with me. I know he thinks I'm innocent, but I'm not. I want to keep his purity as in-tact as possible, so how do I do that without going too far with him or pressuring him to at all? I want to get back to that lifestyle, but I have no idea how. :dry: That's all for now... stay tuned.

I honestly think tell him the truth about both but in a gentle way as not to scare him. I don't have much tome right now but I'll get back to you.