hey everyone. i need some encouragement...here lately ive been really sad and stuff. i have a really low self esteem and sometimes i get the feeling that i dont even deserve to have the friends that i have....like i feel like they deserve better then me. i feel like im not good enough for anyone. and then its like, everytime i pray for something to happen, it happens but to me its a bad way...its like i wish i never would have prayed for it to happen in the first place? does anyone ever feel like this? i hold all my feelings in too cause i feel sooooooo dumb whenever i express the way i feel. its like, everyone thinks i am always so happy and fine....but really on the inside its like everything is eating me alive. i feel like everyone is always judging me in the worst possible way. i have major trust issues, and i mean, even if something great happens i have a hard time even showing that im excited....i dont know why and i dont understand. ive tried praying and asking God to help me but it doesnt seem like he is......i try to tell myself to just forget about it and let God deal with it but its like its there to haunt me everday.... this is all kinda random, but i just cant figure out exactly how to get what im feeling out in words.....:(

Post edited by: Emma_Kate03, at: 2006/07/28 22:33

well,everybody has pretty much said what i would say.but i'll pray for you.also,when you pray and don't really know what to say just say i dunno or something,cuz God knows what's going on in your mind.that's pretty much what i do half the time anyways,but somehow it always seems to work out and help so much.STAY STRONG!!!! ~SquirrelB)

you guys, well girls haha, thanks so much!! you all have helped me a lot, so thank you!!!! :)