ive changed myself to be accepted by my friends. i want to just be me, be anna, but ive forgotten who i really am... its really starting to scare me because i know that i cant live forever being someone that im not... i need to find out who i really am soon because this has been bothering me for a while and its starting to depress me. you might think its a stupid thing to be depressed u but its a big deal to me..i guess you just have to know me to understand why its so important...and if i do become even more depressed than i already am (for other reasons) im scared that i will do something drastic...

Last year, that happened to me. My friends were all sorta.... "punk". So I tried to fit in with them. Since I am a very blonde, kinda stupid white girl, it didn't work so well [: so I decided to step away from the new fad and you know what? my friends followed me. I'm not saying they stopped dressing the way they did before, but they joined me in my spiritual walk to become closer to Jesus. Not as many as I had hoped came with me, but the ones I was closest to followed close behind. And today, I am myself and couldn't be happier. So take a chance. "Run after God, but look behind you and see who is catching up"

what? how did that happen??! Last year, that happened to me. My friends were all sorta.... "punk". So I tried to fit in with them. Since I am a very blonde, kinda stupid white girl, it didn't work so well [: so I decided to step away from the new fad and you know what? my friends followed me. I'm not saying they stopped dressing the way they did before, but they joined me in my spiritual walk to become closer to Jesus. Not as many as I had hoped came with me but the ones I was closest to were always close behind.And today, I am myself and couldn't be happier and prouder. So take a chance. "Run after God, but look behind you and see who is catching up"

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I so know how you feel! I think everybody goes through this once in their life. I agree with what coolchristiangirl said. Spend time with God, just you and Him. Dont be afraid, God made everyone a certain way, and we're all special in our own way :)