there's only a week and a half left of school. exams start next wednesday or thursday, and graduation is friday. at our school, we have this thing called senior servant auction on a wednesday and day on that same friday in november. well me and 2 of my best friends got together and got one of the seniors. he was the very last senior put up for auction, and we were bidding against the whole seventh grade. we ended up winning him (and paying the most for any senior this year, with people that got excited and threw money at us when we were about to lose lol) for $128. We dressed him up all funny and took him around to our classes friday. he's the drummer in band with us, so we became pretty close and stuff. all 4 of us started talking more, and he's like really funny. and tall. and cute (in person, lol). and he has the most beautiful blue and green eyes I've ever seen. we got yearbooks last monday, and he signed mine when i misplaced it tuesday. when I got it back, I opened it up to find his little good-bye message about how it was great being my senior slave and he'd get me back and blah blah. wednesday was the seniors last day, except for the ones that had to come back to take exams the next day, so I'm probably not gonna see him until graduation. all 4 of us just became so close, I'm really gonna miss him next year. i mean, he has a myspace and a facebook,but I might never get to see him in person after graduation again. AND HE'S GOING TO COLLEGE FAR AWAY FROM HERE!!! I'M SOOO SAD!!!!!!!!!!!! *sigh* well. that was my random rant about my senior buddy that none of you guys know. :'( deep breath, alex. you can do this...

ima freak.

You are not a freak! Sounds like you like him... (: hehe

hehe...that reminds me of another incident with him...lol. one time he came over to sit with us at lunch, and we got all quiet and he was like "why do you guys always get awkward when i'm around your other friends?" and one of my friends decided to say "cause they like you!" then after lunch, we went to band, and I totally ignored him when he said hi and he was all like "what? ijust wanna be friends!" in a stupid voice that looked funny coming from someone as big and tall as him lol. but it got normal again after that and we all pretended that never happened. ughh! do you hear me! (or read me, i guess??) i'm obsessed! ughh! this is gonna be hard to get used to lol.

I sowwy. =( I know what it feels like to lose someone that you're very close to. Trust me. The guy that has been my best friend since I was four is moving. I have 6 days left with him. Oh wait, I don't care. We got into this huge fight, and... I'm going to stop rambling now. Long story short: As of Monday, we no longer talk to eachother. Bottom line: I know what it feels like to lose someone special. Just pray about it. Maybe you should exchange phone numbers.

GRADUATION WAS TONIGHT!! I'M SOOOO SAD!! After the ceremony, there were so many people there trying to talk to him, I had to pretty much stand in line waiting, and I only got "Hey, Congratulations" in before some tall guy got in front of me and started talking to him. I'M NEVER GONNA SEE HIM IN PERSON AGAIN! I'M GONNA MISS HIM SOOOOOO MUCH!!!! :(

Ever tried looking at things in a positive light?

How could I look at it in a positive light?

Don't conclude that you'll never see him again. Instead, hope for the best. Hope that you [i]will[/i] see him again.

i'll try that. it's gonna get a little hard getting used to but i can get through it. and there's still facebook.