Ok, first of all let me say I need advice, not critisim...because I know what happened was wrong, and I was just as wrong as this boy, so please don't put me down I feel bad enough as it is. I have a boyfriend but I sent him an e-mail yesterday that said I didn't want to be with him anymore and we should be friends (in a nice way though). But the real reason is that I love someone else...and I mean truly love. (Please don't say I'm too young to know what love is, I have felt like this about this boy for two years, he is the first thing I think of when I get and the last thing I think of when I go to sleep. I pray for him more than I do for myself and I just don't know what I would do without him) But this boy has a girlfriend also, he said as soon as he saw her he was gonna break up with her because he loved me back. (He said he would see her tomorrow). I had somewhere I had to sing today and he wanted to come so I asked my parents if we could take him and they said yes and so we did. On the way home he sat really close to me and he told me he loved me, then we kissed. I told him that was my first kiss and he said he wanted to kiss me again. But before I would let him I asked if he was going to for sure break up with his girlfriend and he said he wasn't sure. Well, we wound up kissing again and then like 5 minutes later he says that we should just be friends. He said that while he was holding my hand and still really close to me, I asked him who he loved and he said me but he didn't know how to break up with her. So I let go of his hand and moved away a little and I could have swore he was crying, then before he left he asked me to kiss him again and I said no, then he asked why and I told him friends don't kiss. Ok so I know this was so totally wrong but I love him and I don't know what to do without him but I can't be with him if he has a girlfriend, he would if I said yes but I just don't want to be his little toy to play with when he isn't around his girlfriend. I don't know what I am going to do, tonight I had my first kiss and my first heartbreak all at once. I just someone to tell me something without saying I was totally wrong for trusting him and loving him.

all i can tell u is u should let him decides wut he wants.:(

thanks...today at church I saw him and he told me his girlfriend was really really mad at him because he told her what happened. But he said he isn't going to break up with her, and he also said he regreted kissing me. BUt he said he still loves me but he can't have two girlfriend's....this isn't cool. I really do love him and he can't seem to get that. I still don't know though, his girlfriend might break up with him. I guess that wouldn't be very surprising. But I don't know what he would do after that...I mean if he would want to be with me. I just hate this!!!!

*gasp*..... he shouldnt have told her that. now she might.:S but he chose to.:pinch:

Yeah...and I still can't stop thinking about him!!! I Love him soooo much and he doesn't seem to care...well he does...just not enough to break up with her...so I give up on him! Ok thats a lie, I don't give up on him...I just wish he knew how much I cared about him.

maby stratacastle knows wut 2 do.

Idk...I wish someone could tell me something though because I can't stop thinking about him and he really hurt me, he doesn't even realize it either.

Don't beat yourself up about the kiss, it was his fault. He's being a total jerk. I'm sorry, it must be hard to hear that but it's true. I'm in love with a guy who completely ignores me, and I hate it when people call him bad things for what he's done to me. I'd normaly just tell someone to just move on with a guy like that, but I know how you feel (kind of). I guess just talk to him and tell you how you feel. (Tell him EVERYTHING, guys arn't fast enough to figure out exactly how you feel) I know it'll be hard, but it's what has to be done. The best advice I can give you is to pray about it. Praying can solve any problem in the best possible way!

Well, your right. I don't want to think of him as a jerk...but I really do still love him. I did talk to him, and he said he was just going to wait it out with his girlfriend and try to talk to her about it. (She knows what happened but he said he still doesn't know what he is going to do) We both agreed that as long as he has a girlfriend that nothing is going to happen...and he can't lie to me about not having a girlfriend because I can always ask his best friend who also goes to my church....so yeah, for now I am completly single. Thanks for the add, and the advice...

I just added some pics and he is in there, his name is Daniel.