This may turn into just venting, but I'm not sure yet. Ever since Meghan passed away on Tuesday, I've just felt deep depression. Not only because of her death, but because it seems as if everything is going downhill. I guess I should make a list or I'll jump around too much. *Everyone here is familiar with the cliques at schools and everywhere else. Well, some people at my school have decided that I'm inferior to them and have begun to criticize me, make fun of me in general, and do anything else in their power to get me down. Of course now, because this is the most convenient time. [/sarcasm] I mostly just ignore, but it really does get me down. I try not to let it show to them. But really, it upsets me. Terribly. I already have terribly self esteem, and I don't need that. Don't even start with telling teachers. I've tried. Our faculty sucks, and they never do anything to punish. *My parents, as usual. They're making me feel terrible. I don't even feel like they want to be around me anymore. I have so much going on in life, and both of them basically refuse to support me. Neither of them have done much of anything to help me get through the pain of Meghan's death. I feel like I can't make them happy, no matter what I do, and my mom has been in a constant bad mood, especially toward me, lately. It's upsetting me very badly. Let me just say that I've prayed about all of this, and that's where the next one comes in. *God. I know he promised to never leave me, and that he'd always be there through whatever. But, lately, I feel like he's been gone. I haven't felt him around me lately, and I just keep calling out with no answer. That's what upsets me most. That's who I go to when everything else is wrong, and that's what I need now. I've cried the past several nights, and I just don't know what to do. I can't get into reading my Bible much anymore, and that's making me feel worse. I don't know what to do, other than to keep calling out. Sorry this is so long. I just needed somewhere to put all this. I hate keeping it bottled up. Feel free to ignore, or reply if you have some advice.

Good reply. Thanks for that. I do believe that helped quite a bit. :)

Pancakeycake, thanks for that. I needed to hear all of that. *glomp* Love you too. Kezia, thanks to you too. I'll watch that video later as soon as I can find some headphones. >_>