Has anyone else been on the top of the world and then had everything seem to collapse around you? well that's my story. I was supposed to be baptised several weekends ago and everything seemed to be going perfect in my life, i was close to God, i was right with my parents, and i was a good friend. now i just find myself being that friend that needs help but still doesn't want it or recognize what i need help with. i just know that i need something to be fixed. when i was still extremely close with God that was my goal, to spend time with him and fix my problems. but struggle with those problems has only brought us apart. I really don't like the way internal politics at my church is going right now, and i still don't have a strong spiritual leader yet since my old one left sometime before January. I don't feel like going to church anymore, and its not bc i don't want to learn about god, it's just that it's not the right enviornment. And im starting to feel this anxiety about trying to be right with god but just not being able to do it by myself.[b] Am I the only one that is tired of living in mediocrity?[/b]