My life has been a little crazy lately. I would love to have someone to talk to. :) So first of all, I "lost" my best friend. We used to hang out every weekend and she was like a sister to me. But, at the beginning of this past summer, we grew too busy for each other I guess. In May I saw her, I dont know, maybe once. June not at all, and July I saw her once. It felt so weird to have the awkward conversation of "Oh it's been forever, how have you been? -Fine, how about you?- Oh i've been good too......" and not have anything else to say. She knew all my secrets and now we've changed, and it feels like I dont know her and she doesnt know me. It's really sad. When I called her up one time when I knew we both had a free weekend, she told me she had other plans, which I was fine with until I got on facebook and saw that she was at home "being bored". :( she would rather be bored at home than hang out with me. That really upset me, but eventually we started hanging out some more. We've been going out on Friday nights doing girl things, like going to the mall and bed bath & beyond :) but each time I mention her coming over for the night she sort of ignores the suggestion and, well, I feel like she's avoiding it because she thinks it'll be awkward. ARG. I dont know what to do :( I want my best friend back. I also have an issue with a boy. But it's not as important. Ok, so there's this guy that goes to my church. I've sort of liked him for a long time :) hehe. But i have NO idea if he likes me!! D: my best friend at church doesnt know i like him (idk why i havent told her!) but one time, when we were on a retreat, we went to the pool at the hotel. It was me, my bff, the guy i like, his best friend, my guy best friend, and our youth pastor. (we have a really small youth :P there were only like 2 other people that came on that retreat) anyway, so after we played around for a while the guy i like, let's name him Johnny, started splashing me and getting me wet. me and my bff both said we didnt want to get wet, but he never splashed her. just me. and she was standing right beside me. Sooo. after a while the boys left, so it was only me and my bff at the pool. well we got into the hot tub and we were talking about stuff. all of a sudden she said she thought he liked me, just cause he looks at me a lot. Wellll, ok, so i've never had a boyfriend before, because i've never been interested. But now I really think I like this guy enough. But since ive never had experience I dont know if he likes me or not! ahh...I wish i could x-ray his brain. So, he tells me his secrets, like how he liked this girl last year, and she expected him to take her to homecoming but he didnt cause he was too afraid to ask her. so since i'm talking to him about girls he likes, does that mean i'm just a friend to him? i really have NO idea. I think i'd be ok with just being best friends :) haha, cause he's really funny and i honestly dont want to ruin our friendship.....ahh i dont know what to do with life right now. AND i dont have a best friend to talk to about my boy troubles! :( if only i had her there would be no need for this thread. D: but, that's life i guess. so, share your opinion? :)

Give it all to God. God may be our daddy but he's good at giving advice on boys and best friends. :)