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Rage and forgiveness

Bittersweet

18 year(s) ago

Ok, I don't ask for help often, but I seriously need it now. Over a year ago, at a play, I met a junior in high school, who had a girlfriend. Eventually, he started flirting with me at the play. By now, his girlfriend stop showing up to rehearsal, and I thought they'd broken up. (Flawed, 13 year old logic on my part.) So over the course of the play, he gave me lots of hugs, and kissed me once on the cheek, and we told each other we loved each a lot. (As in, we told each other we loved each other often) Then, he says he's still with his girlfriend. At first, I was devasted, cause I thought that we had a relationship blossoming (again, flawed 13 year old logic) and then that was snuffed out. But months later, when I thought about, I realized I'd been used. And I was angry. Enraged. At him, for using me, and at myself, for letting myself be used, and for not being smart enough to realize that he was using me. I mean, he didn't know my name, didn't know my age, why would he be interest in me? And now, over a year since the play ended, I still think about what happened. When I see him, I duck and hide because I don't want to be seen, and then get angry at him. I feel that I can forgive him, but I struggle to forgive myself because it's mainly me that I'm angry at. I'm just so ashamed and angry and hurt by what happened, I'm afraid I'll never move on, and never forgive myself or him. Please, please help me.

harkee33

18 year(s) ago

I know you may be angry at him(and he eventhough he hurt you), but the best thing to do is to forgive him. You will feel a lot better:)

Ksweetheart10

18 year(s) ago

I feel the same way cuz of this guy that asked me out and was only using me to make another girl jealous so all i can say is forgive and forget forgive because God says to forgive when u are hurt and forget just so u dont have to hold a grudge and to forget about them and what they did to you.

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