15:18] a: i want to see you socially before then [15:18] crazychick: ...? [15:18] a: not just church [15:19] a: not askin u on date lol....yet [15:19] crazychick: You haven't seen me at church [15:19] crazychick: And that's the only place I go [15:19] crazychick: I'm not going out with you [15:19] a: well i can give u lift when u have breathing space [15:21] a: ... [15:21] crazychick: I'm sorry [15:21] crazychick: I like you as a friend, but I won't date you [15:21] a: lol well thats out of the way now lol yay [15:21] a: its my curse [15:22] crazychick: What is? [15:22] a: the nice guy curse [15:22] crazychick: Huh? [15:22] a: always friends [15:23] crazychick: Well I'll swap if you like [15:23] crazychick: I have the nice girl curse [15:23] crazychick: It has the opposite effect to the nice guy curse [15:23] a: whats that? [15:24] a: always have a bf? [15:24] crazychick: Everybody crushes on you. And you get stalkers who won't take no [15:24] crazychick: No, thank goodness, but only because I'm not that nice of a nice girl [15:24] crazychick: I don't want a bf at all [15:24] a: u sound like alicia [15:24] a: lol [15:24] crazychick: lol [15:25] crazychick: In some way s I am like Alicia [15:25] crazychick: But I don't know any boys who I would want to marry [15:25] crazychick: And so I don't want to date them, either [15:25] a: so u think only 1 bf ever? [15:26] crazychick: Probably not [15:26] crazychick: But the less the better [15:26] crazychick: And why even go down that road if I'm not pretty sure I like where it ends? [15:26] a: true and is supported by best friends upgrade [15:26] crazychick: lol what? [15:27] a: only best friends become bf/gf [15:27] a: instead of the stranger syndrome [15:28] a: you just not wanting to take that risk cause u cant see the end? [15:28] crazychick: No.. pretty sure I wouldn't date my best friends [15:28] crazychick: They get the sibling upgrade lol [15:28] crazychick: I adopt them [15:28] a: thus u are stuck [15:28] crazychick: And it'd be CREEPY to date your brother [15:29] a: lol u should review your upgrade system then lol [15:29] crazychick: But I don't like any of the people I know in that way [15:29] crazychick: And, thank you, I'm not stuck at all [15:29] crazychick: I'm just waiting for the right time and the right person [15:29] a: cliche for sale! [15:29] crazychick: Maybe I like my update system? [15:29] crazychick: seriously, it ticks me off that people think you have to have a significant other to be happy [15:30] a: well it is a desire he gave us isnt it? [15:30] a: and if u stick to your update system then there will be no mr right ae [15:32] crazychick: Or maybe you just don't know how my system works [15:32] a: but it is in corinthians that it better not to want that to desire that kind of thing [15:32] crazychick: Maybe G-d did give us that desire, but I'm trusting Him to help me use it wisely? [15:32] a: yes and there are some it doesnt affect like that [15:32] a: like paul said...or was it peter [15:33] crazychick: It was Paul [15:33] crazychick: But no I'm not like him [15:33] a: corinthians 7? [15:33] crazychick: I do want to get married one day [15:33] crazychick: I don't know the reference [15:34] a: i think its corinthians or collosians or sumthing 7.heard it on radio rima [15:34] a: it uses the verse i use [15:34] crazychick: It probably is Corinthians [15:34] a: better to marry than sin like that or whatever it says [15:35] a: but putting god first is the focus needed before all else and thats the problem u cant catalogue lifes problems into parts of the year [15:36] a: feels like u need to contend with so many issues yet they write it as 'gods kingdom first all else after [15:36] crazychick: What are you even talking about? [15:37] a: sometimes i think ive become emotionally distant to avoid the desires yet it makes faith harder to understand [15:38] crazychick: Honestly, I don't even know what you're talking about [15:38] a: the desire for other half [15:38] crazychick: I'm just not ready to date, nor am I inclined to do so with any of the guys I currently know [15:39] a: sorry i dont know the right times to say what i think so it may sound absurd [15:39] crazychick: Yeah.. pretty much it did [15:40] crazychick: I'm sure you'll find your other half, but it's not me [15:40] a: just want someonecan talk to that can understand I KNOW IT AINT U [15:40] crazychick: Uhm [15:41] crazychick: I'm just gonna look really confused for a bit now [15:41] crazychick: Ok? [15:41] a: why [15:41] crazychick: Why are you yelling at me, for a start? [15:42] a: u thought i still wanted u [15:42] crazychick: And dude, why can you only talk to a girlfriend? That's a dumb attitude, and kinda puts girls off. It just makes you seem clingy [15:42] a: i didnt to start with it was joking [15:42] a: im talking to u aint i [15:43] crazychick: just want someonecan talk to that can understand [15:43] crazychick: right after a big long thing about wanting an other half [15:43] crazychick: Kinda gives the impression that only a gf fits that role [15:44] a: u said how easy it is for u to sort when u want other half and i thought i was explaining my view bout it using god and bible text but seemd to throw u as i said my mind dont work 'normally' [15:44] a: then u assume im hinting at u so why not shout when u not listening [15:45] crazychick: I didn't assume you still wanted me [15:45] crazychick: I merely wanted to be sure we were clear [15:45] crazychick: Did I mention I have stalkers? [15:45] a: and so u didnt know me at all? [15:45] a: always the way [15:46] crazychick: Look. I don't think I'm going to be able to talk to you till you've calmed down and realised I'm not insulting you or whatever [15:46] crazychick: You're being silly [15:46] a: silly? [15:46] a: i thought my 'best friends' trusted me then something happend to show they baely knew me [15:47] a: barely [15:47] crazychick: And that's my fault because...? [15:47] crazychick: Not to mention trust is really hard to gain and really easy to lose [15:47] a: Did I mention I have stalkers? [15:48] crazychick: AND some people just don't trust eadily [15:48] a: what was theat for [15:48] crazychick: I didn't say you were one [15:48] crazychick: I said that I have stalkers [15:48] crazychick: I do have stalkers [15:48] crazychick: I have had to learn to be very clear with what I say, so as to leave no doubt [15:48] crazychick: I now do that for everybody, whether I suspect them of being stalkerish or not [15:49] crazychick: Seriously, stop taking things so personally [15:49] crazychick: If you don't think something applies to you, it probably doesn't [15:49] a: we were talking bout something theat i struggled with for bout 6years and still do at tiems so forgive me if im being sensitive [15:50] crazychick: Oh I'm sorry. I was supposed to read your mind and just know that? [15:51] crazychick: This also is something I have struggled with for six years [15:51] a: well i thought we were talking as in having a conversation bout the subject of desiere for partners then it sounded like u werent even paying attention [15:52] crazychick: I'm sorry if I took offence at being informed that my upgrade system was faulty and that I was stuck. I also apologise if I was completely confused as to what you were trying to say, when I don't know what you meant or where all that came from [15:52] crazychick: And I apologised if I'm distracted. Did I mention I was worried about my brother? [15:52] a: u did [15:53] crazychick: For your information, a close friend of ours died last week and I'm very concerned as to how he's coping with it [15:53] a: it came from our difference in views on the partner isssue [15:53] crazychick: I still don't even know what your view is, other than that you clearly want one and feel you're cursed because you haven't got one [15:54] a: nothing to do with the deire for one for six years where u are at peace with being single [15:54] a: and its not cursed its just MISSING company [15:55] a: or the fact of priorities in fatih [15:55] a: faith [15:55] crazychick: My gosh. Just because I'm at peace with being single doesn't mean I don't have emotions and desires [15:55] a: single kid here [15:55] crazychick: I'm just chanelling them [15:56] a: well helps that u know what u want to do and i didnt say u didnt just talking bout the main issue we started on here [15:56] crazychick: I often wish I had a companion, if you will. But I'm willing to wait [15:56] crazychick: What is the main issue? I STILL don't know what you're talking about! [15:56] a: im just straight out uncertain [15:57] crazychick: Well if you don't know and I don't know, what the heck are you talking about? [15:57] a: knowing now that what ive looked for in a gf i can have through faith just trying to figure out how to develop such a faith [15:58] crazychick: Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see [15:58] crazychick: Maybe you meant the relationship? [15:58] crazychick: You build that the same as you build any other relationship [15:58] a: yea not hebrews 11:1 [15:59] crazychick: Why not Hebrews 11:1? That's the definition of faith [15:59] a: definitoin nothing like the meaning DUDE. T_T If you read all that, congratulations. You're more patient than I.

I'm not that patient... Can you give us the jist of it?

I read it. Oh. My. Gosh. I would punch that kid in the face. It wasn't even me in the situation and I wanted to punch him in the face. T_T

Loryn! ...there is only room for *ONE* Ninja around here. ;)