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Slipping away!

HelloWorld

18 year(s) ago

I need help- badly. Very, very badly. I'm really scared. I feel myself slipping away from God. Not willingly, but I just feel myself slip, almost day by day. I don't understand why this is happening, and I hate the feeling!!! God is very often the only person I have, and if I lose Him- I lose me. I know nothing can seperate myself from God, and yes, that does comfort me, but I can still feel myself walking away. No, I can't even say that I'm walking away. I just feel so odd. Spiritually, emotionally, I've become apathetic- the very thing that I hate with a passion! I sort of feel like I'm in a thick, overwhelming fog, and I can't see even a foot a head of me, behind me or around me. I have this rope in my hand, and I've been trying to follow it, but it's just gotten so hard that now all I can do is crawl- if I can do anything at all. I want to stop, to drop the rope, but I fear that if I do, I'll never find my way back, that I'll get lost. I'm so, so tired. I have no energy to really throw into getting to know God better. I don't even know how to get to know God better! I read my Bible at least once a day-two or three times when I have the chance. I try to really study it. I pray. I'm doing everything that 'everyone' tells me I should be doing, but I'm missing something. Gosh, there's so much to explain, but it all seems so complicated. Has anyone else been here? Any advice? Please? Anything? I really, really appreciate it!!!!! :)

areanne

18 year(s) ago

wow..u should talk with people..leaders/pastors if u havnt already i kinda was there too but it turned out terrible.. i sorta found god & stuff & really was on fire BUT i didnt get it..i kept trying to figure stuff out but nothing helped.. i slipped away too ..actually i'm gone now but i'm trying to find life inside me. good luck :)

agene

18 year(s) ago

theres two things id try aside from what youve said youve already done. and there almost opposites but still try one! what more can mess up if you're already feeling like this right? 1- the Word tells us "Be still and know that I am God!" so just take time to et COMPLETELY away from everthing and just [i]be with Him[/i]. it may be hard but do it try to block out all random thoughts and just focus on Him. listen. 2-basically the same thing. i mean exactly the same thing. but put on something like a worship cd and just spend your time sitting, being there, listening, and praising Him. i know i feel closest to Him. and just fall in more LOVE with Him when i just spend time with Him not doing things i feel like i "have" to do for Him. just being with Him desiring Him. cause thats what He wants.

cool2bme

18 year(s) ago

i tottally know what you mean. i was just in that position like a little while ago. one of the biggest things was that i hurt some people and i felt that if i didnt constantly feel bad about my sins that i would do it again. but thats from the devil.love keeps no record of wrongs, and God is love so he wants us to feel happy. also one of the things that helps is if you keep a prayer journal, it takes some dicipline but if you start it really helps:) and are you plugged in to a church? hope i helped:)

Lorna

18 year(s) ago

I've been there too. We all get a little weary of God, but this isn't weariness, it's something else... Who knows? Maybe it's satan trying to lure us away from God in a quiet sneaky way. Pray to God and ask him for determination and his will to lead you back to him. I'm there right now too...

HelloWorld

18 year(s) ago

Thanks, guys. :)

disciple-in-training

18 year(s) ago

Yeah, I know what you mean. Dead, sort of. Alone and isolated. Like you don't really care that you slipping away. And yet you do...so you're scared. I've been there too. Recently. But God's bringing me back...:) agene's idea of just being with God is great....wait on him. For as long as it takes. I know it's hard and you feel like you don't really care (well at least I did), but perservere. Let God speak to you and wrap his arms around you. He loves us. Believe him when he says nothing can seperate you. Personally, I find it really comforting to read various parts of Psalms. They're so soothing. So, I hope this helped. Know that you're not alone, that God's loves you and is with you. And know that I'm praying for you. May God bless you abundantly with his grace, love, and peace today. ~Rachel

elaine12345678910

18 year(s) ago

Man u guys. I'm at the point of tears. This is where I am now, I just don't care. I mean i have all these urges. Like this boy im relly attracted to we've ben messin around and dang he's so FINE!!!! And I've ben fantasisin. And Like at this point I dont' care! I just wanna make out with him or something else. And I've been finding myself thinking awful things like well if i was left in the rapture then me and him could mess around all we want with out my parents there in my business. And I'm like GOD pull me back. I'm just going through the motions, with my attitude all out of wack. ANd it's just like I can't anymore. Dunno wut to do.

HelloWorld

18 year(s) ago

Rachel- Thanks so, so much. I took the above advice to just be still last night. Oh my gosh, it was like opening a window after having a house all closed up for years, you know? God didn't necessarily speak to me, but he was there, present. All I could do was close my eyes and open my arms- and pray. I prayed like I haven't prayed in a looong time. With passion, and zeal, and adoration. It was so, so nice. Elaine- I feel for you. I'm not boy-crazy, but I do what what you described. I have to echo the advice given here- get alone with God. Don't nessisarily ask him to make himself known, but get out a favorite WORSHIP CD, and just sit and listen. You will probably want to 'retreat' to your room, or any 'special spot' you may have. Just be sure it's quiet. Last night, I lit a bunch of candles and turned out the lights, and just... Sat. Listened. Prayed. I listened to music earlier that day and was just overcome with the need to open my arms and lift my hands. I've done this before, and nothing has happened, so don't be discouraged if you don't feel any different. God IS listening to you. He DOES care. I've been reading the book of Jeremiah, and you know what's funny? One of God's own PROPHETS felt like we do. So, you're not alone, Elaine. God listened to him, and he's listening to us. Just hold on for one more day. :) I'll be praying for you. -Heather

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